If the dark day of the soul, those particularly trying and seemingly bleak and black days, was just a day..it might be bearable. However, the term 'the dark day' is a figure of speech which usually is in 'soul years' and can mean two, five even up to ten years where a person hibernates in the pain, wallows in the scudge and thrashes about without any direction.
Some people call this a 'mid life crisis', 'a change of life', others might term it depression or even some kind of disorder. We always will try as intellectual beings to classify, sort, understand and quantify everything, so the fact that it has 100 names is of no real help or consequence. You are in it...
When you enter 'a dark day'...(I say 'a' because you can have more than one in a lifetime), you will do almost anything to get out of it. It is like falling into a big hole while out hiking and you are completely powerless to extricate yourself. Most of us will thrash, scream, fight, try to organize an escape plan, distract, ingest, move, dump loved ones, lose our minds (temporarily or permanently) and finally...only once all other attempts have been executed...finally....we might surrender.
At this point surrender feels more like giving up. We are so close to the big edge, the giant precipice called death (though it is only emotional and spiritual pain and the body is fine) that we invite the termination of the pain and suffering created by life circumstances that push us out of our happy safe and perfectly manufactured lives. The truth is we create perfect little picturesque lives that make us feel like all is cool. We feel strong, intelligent, capable, efficient and our egos are completely distracted with the chimera of this life. The illusion, like The Matrix, that all is good and great and I am well and doing what I should be doing is shattered.
Then the shit show begins. One event at a time your manufactured life undergoes a dismantling. The best part is you are a witness..not a participant. This is the dark first day....then many follow.
Now the soul could give two flying doughnuts what your 'life' looks like. Its only interest is in your evolution, your growth, your manifestation into the amazing being you already are yet have forgotten. Your career, partners, financial status and eye color and body measurements do not interest the soul. It wants results!
When the soul decides it is time for the game to end, your whole world changes. Everything you valued and hung on to to make you feel ok, even great...shifts, changes, morphs or disappears. There you are... naked. Sometimes alone. Sometimes completely broke and broken. This is the dark day of the soul. But it is actually the best day for the soul. Now that it has your full undivided attention, the transformation from the illusion to the real begins. The real story starts...before hand we were simply 'playing house'.
The 'Dark Day of the Soul' is really the nightmare of the ego and the renewal of the soul and its primary importance in all aspects of our lives. At the time it feels like we are dying... and we are... in a sense. Your ego is getting a demotion. The soul takes its rightful place at the helm.
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